guilt trip

So much for overly self-reliance that I really missed Him. I felt fragmented as I go through without Him. Well, I treat Him as my friend. In fact, when I felt like dying is the only option for me, it’s like He talked me out of it and gave me hope. I don’t want to be considered exaggeratedly devout and be showy about it, but then, without Him, life will not be as secured as knowing home is just a mile away. Still, I’ve been a bad girl. Considering that I did things opposing his, I’m ashamed to even call His Name. How can I talk to Him if I know I did wrong? I am guilty. And I admit it. I’ve felt the consequence of it now in my life and I realized that I need Him to get back in a straight path. But how?

I forgot I know Him. I can just kneel now and talk to Him. Whew!